d real me is emo....not tat i dont know...i just dont show it to everyone...n i try to tell myself im rong...but still

d whole day i was liked tem freaked out by tat smiley lah... n yes stupid carmen 4 telling her i can understand cny....then smiley like everytime talk to me in chinese...n i would just nod my head...urghhh....cant cina people please speak english!!! anyways 4 d 1st time i see smiley not smiling...its cause tat carmen go n talk to her bout how to entertain customers....give advice...skali she like not happy d smile totally gone...i noe im supposed to be happy bout tis..but freaky...

after 5 continuous work days eating sambal fried rice..i finally ate someting different...seriously y cant jp just make every foodcourt halal....MORE MONEY LAH STUPID!!! n save money on pork!!zzz...sucker man...everytime banquet...n its like so damn ex lah....5 bucks enough 4 like d meal only.zzzzzz anyways like i said.....ate someting new... wanton noodles!! ...not bad..although not really very spicy.. ( big disappointment)

so todae marks d 4th day im NOT talking to u.....i noe its lame n stupid ...but then...i wan u to how it feels like...y i start to hate u for this lame shit...
...ahhh fuck it....people only call on me when they wan favours....after tat...they dont bother....other better people to do so...but im cool wit it......its his plan after all............everyting happens 4 e reason....but still...hate it lah..am i tat scary n mean.....!!!!! ( mayb gonna do some self reflecting....ir mayb i'll just go to sleep)